I've been in Togo for almost a year now and I still can't get the seasons correct. Depending on who you ask it's rain season, dry season, hot season...etc. All I know is that since I landed in Togo last June I have been sweating continuously. I literally spend some days wrapped in a wet pagne (lapa/cloth) while sitting directly in front of my fan...still sweating....
Wow, I just realized I have one more year left. It's true when volunteers describe your days as going slow but the months go by fast. Honestly, I don't feel like I have accomplished much. However, I am reassured by many that it is completely normal to still feel like a loser when you reach your one year mark....
I do have a few upcoming events/projects that I'm excited about. Next week I start my vacation enterprise for girls in my village - teaching girls business skills and importance of savings so that they can make and save money to go to school. I'm crossing my fingers hoping that everything works out well. Also, I'm planning vacations: I'm planning on going to Spain (and maybe Paris *cross fingers*) for my birthday (woohoo!) and trying to figure out when I can visit Morocco and Liberia again...wish I had unlimited funds, but don't we all...
What I've always knew about myself: I'm kind, giving, understanding and laid back. I'm also short tempered, impatient, sarcastic and intolerant of bs. What I've realized since being in Togo: When faced with intolerable heat, my negative characteristics completely take over. On a daily basis so many people try to take advantage of me or treat me like a child (well...I do sort of speak french like a 4 year old) that I started building this armor over myself. I actually slammed the door in the electricians face the other way when he tried to take advantage of me. I know that wasn't the right thing to do but I'll be lying if I said it didn't feel good. *sign* I guess I need to start thinking about that saying "what would Jesus do?"....
I never been really religious. I can't quote you any Bible verses, I don't speak in tongues, nor am I a great prayer (whatever that means). However, I feel like I'm becoming more religious here. I tend to read my Bible more (However, not everyday. Sorry Mom). I also been having a lot of conversations about faith with locals. I don't understand how you can say you're a strong believer in God and constantly be fearful of black magic/voodoo. But anyway, another day, another topic....
Oh and before I finish my random thoughts...I still miss my family and friends SOOOO much. It's ridiculous. I wan't planning a trip back to the US but I may have to reconsider...
Till next time...xoxo
